Essay or blog post?

Thanks be to Bridget when she asked me the other day: "Do you sit there and edit your blogs? Because it sure seems like it."
The answer, ladies and gents is YES. I've even gone so far as looking up a word in the online Thesaurus. ("Quintessence" in case you were really curious). Dont' worry, it's not a regular thing but the word was on the tip of my fingers/tongue and I just couldn't think of it.
The next big question: WHY? Is it a roundabout way to try and impress my readers? (all 3 of you haha) ? Lack of having a life? Chronic boredom? Nerdiness?
Unfortunately I can't tell you the answer because I want to keep bringing in the dough. soorryyyyy!! haha. but I can tell you that I love writing, I miss it, and writing in my blog is a way to keep my brain going and stimulated during the day if you know what I mean. Forces me to think about things and utilize my brain.
Which brings me to my next topic. I miss being busy. I miss having a bajillion things to do, going from here to there, feeling like I had an impact on other people's lives or organizations, being challenged to add my own flare to whatever I chose to become involved in. I miss looking forward to going to my internships everyday. I miss living in a constant chaos of activites and school and having as much fun as I could in between. Life's slowing down a little bit too much for me and I'm not used to it. It's all routine: work, come home, work out, eat, find something to do. On a lucky day I'll catch my roomies while they aren't shut in their rooms buried in books. (Maybe that explains the earlier blog post about how obsessed I am with my cat?? haha) Getting them to go out on weekends is like pulling teeth. And I'm used to being the one having mine pulled, so to speak.
So, in defense of my deep thougthful blog posts: It's very hard not to be insightful about life when you have so much time to think about it all! And why not keep up the writing? I love it and I hope to someday be able to utilize it in my career.
So pardon my rant, but here comes another one. I've been thinking about it all. Listening to friends who have landed amazing jobs that they love (congrats because some of them are you!) have plans to move to the cities of their dreams (which maybe I will do that too who knows) and I've decided, who's to stop me from getting involved and continuing to be impactful and do things I love even if I have graduated? So that's what I'm going to do. I'll keep you updated as to how it goes. :-)