Decisions.

Decisions.
For the sure minded: Empowering
For the indecisive: Foreboding

Decisive people associate the word with opportunity. People like me immediately think of regret.
Regret is the slap in the face that lets you know you made the wrong decision.

Everybody goes through it in one form or another, for instance picking the wrong major, the wrong friends, the wrong sorority, ect. Realizing your ex was a catch after you see him with his new sweetheart, or realizing the guy you went back to indeed hadn’t changed.

For me, picking a college was the most impactful decision I’ve made in my life. Hello, it builds the framework for the rest of your life. I’ll never forget the day I sat by my phone at 3:59 p.m. a minute before the decision deadline still unsure of where I wanted to go.

This is why I went to move Lori into Wake Forest with a lump in my throat. “Awesome”, I thought. I get to go see the life I would have had if I’d taken the other pathway. That’s like my worst nightmare.

The good news is, I went there and realized that although yes, it would have been a great experience, I don’t regret my college experience at K-State. So many great things happened to me there. I discovered a more laid-back easygoing side of me I never knew I had. I met some of the most genuine people I’ve ever met. It allowed me the space and supportive environment I needed to fumble around a bit if you will to discover who I was, who I wanted to be, who I wanted to surround myself with and what my values were.

Most importantly, I had the time and confidence to be involved in activities that I probably wouldn’t have considered if I had been going to a competitive school with a demanding academic schedule. Those activities have led me to my career goal (which I am, surprisingly, decisive about).

But I do sit here and wonder (as I read blogs of some of you who have bravely moved, ready to take on the world and do amazing things J ) : Do I want to stay in Kansas? I’ve had a great experience here. But maybe I am ready for something else. Many of you (uh, or like all 4 of you maybe?) haha know that my plan has been to go to UMKC to pursue a graduate degree in Health Administration. But after my trip to Wake Forest and hearing about different post-college plans I’ve started to ponder the idea of looking elsewhere for that degree. After all, it is what I want to do so why not go to the best program for that I can while I experience and new place with new people? I could kill two birds with one stone.

I’m so happy here in Kansas. I love being around my friends and having things to do constantly. And I actually have discovered that KU Med here has a nationally-ranked program. So I’m not making any promises here. But, for the first time in my life I feel confident enough to go out on a limb and actually consider moving somewhere else in the U.S. This is a huge, huge step for me.

Next step: Retake the GRE, raise that score and start applying!